#3 Reunion with Boo! 02/22/12 (3:15-5:15)
I went
to the PLC feeling excited and hopeful mainly because I had a positive and
encouraging experience last week. Then,
Boo was in school today, so I tutored her this time. It wasn’t even the feeling of awkwardness
between Boo and I. Well, to be honest, I don’t even know how she
was feeling because I was just overwhelmed by my feelings, which were
intimidation and worry. Our relationship was not better or worse; it
was the same—the relationship between strangers. She, again, turned to Ms. Scredan for help,
and I had to step up at some point to turn her help toward me.
I tried
to be more confident about myself tutoring her because I thought the reason I
had a better, encouraging experience with Ayla last week was that I was more
confident with myself. However, it was getting
harder to be confident as I encountered some vocabularies or terms that I didn’t
know when Boo asked me for help. When I
seemed to be struggling to explain, either Boo asked Ms. Scredan again or I
gave up and turned to Ms. Scredan for help myself. It was pretty embarrassing for myself, but I
laid it down and decided to study and learn along with Boo instead of trying to
teach her. I wondered if I had to study high school
Language Arts before I come in here, but I didn’t know how to study for it or
how much I’d have to cover, so I gave up trying to be a “smart tutor.” Despite much of the hopes and expectations I came
to the school with, I returned home with discouragement and low self-esteem again.
-Jin Kim, 6:50pm
02/22/12
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